wats this?

aiya i juz hate watever thing is happening to me.
SCREW IT
i dun feel like carrying on nemore.
noone listens, noone cares.
i cant put my heart into wat i am supposed to do.
i hate it.

neways tml was quite a bad day.
maeb 4 the squad.
nt going to say y.
haiz.i can feel how he feels.
probably all he need is to be alone...
n yea i have to agree tat we cant do nething to stop it fr happening.
but its still sm emotional thing rite.
u cant control ur tears fr rolling down.
only time can cure this wound.
n maeb sm moral support by the frends.

haiz.
have u ever wonder y there is death?
its such a painful process 4 the relatives n frends.
but everyone have to face it n sm day it will b their turn.
wat a painful cycle.
u may b crying n weeping bcoz u have loss ur loved ones.
who noes?ten years down the road, alot other ppl may b crying 4 u.

haha.
now i still can remember every chinese new year.
my grandpa will get everything prepared.
all the bah guas, nuts, drinks n chinese new year food ready laid on the table.
he will welcome us with his heart-warming smile.
lol.nex chinese new year, i wont see him there again.
no more "old-hero" in me n my families' life.
how hard am i trying still to accept his death.
tats y, when i heard of his grandma death.
tears started building up in my eyes, thinking of the scene of the whole family of us standing next to his bed in the hospital.
while he sleeps peacefully forever, his heart no longer beating.
then came the day tat he was send into the cremation furnace,
lying in the wooden box called a casket...

hai.43days have passed.
n it seems like he was still alive yesterday.
every memory of him suddenly comes to life.
but he is no-longer.
so, to those of u who still have ur grandparents with u,
treasure them b4 they r gone.

btw i dun tink i have the power to carry on without those ppl ard me.
all those who have been helping me in being a "leader among the leaders".
those who gave words of encouragement n joy to me.
cheerios to u all ((;

lol.neways i sprained my ankle juz now in sch.
hahaha.joke...




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