casino royale

went to watch casino royale with ron yest.wait.wat time isit?ok.on tuesday to be exact.lol
met at bugis n i went to buy tix 1st.hehehe.so luckily saw thong thong.dan he said gav juz went down escalator.dan i chased after gavin.lol.luckily he walked freaking helly slow.

so l0nely trio outing again.hahaha.not bad leh the show.quite cool.2hrs 20min.ass pain movie man!lol.after tat went home lo.wat else?hah

did confidence fall on wednesday.haha.quite fun eh?but sy go scratch my hand when he come down, forcing me to let go.dan he hit his head.lol.the scratch keep bleeding like duno wat.dan now swollen.aiya heck it.

do gals ask more or guys ask more in a relationship?
ever wondered?
mayb tats the thing leading to the start n end of a relationship...

screwed

another fucked up day.
how i wished i went home emoing infront of the com.hah

usual rehearsal again.
sm fuck-tard got so irritated over god-noes-wat-shit.
started scolding like noones business.
worse of all, i was being dragged into the whole shit!
wtf?

i asked him 4 permission dan he agreed.
but dan juz now he told me it was the opposite.
WTF?
im like.if u say dun, will i insist?no i swear.
let me tell u smthing.
u attitude me, i attitude back.
happy or not, i dun care.

sec1s were SHIT.
play poker cards, slacked ard.
fuck it la.
everything screwed up who to blame?
me!fucking hell me again.
how i wished i had sm stupid fucktard post n juz slack the whole of my NCO life.

i seriously cant stand this.
i feel like im useless.
im speechless.
im too reckless.
i cant do nething well.
i screwed up everything.
i want to do everything on my own, but mess up everything.
i want to be a perfectionist, but i cant.
i want to give up, but i cant!
I CANT.

i cant bear to lose everything tat i have worked so hard for.
i feel tat im too childish smtimes.
i duno when to b serious, when not to joke.
i juz want to change.
im unhappy over all the shitty things i get.
i got to change my attitude.
how i wished i was a innocent kid.
smile, laugh, play n willing to do things so willingly.
so naively.

u guys vent all ur anger on me.
then who shall i vent my anger at?

S-E-X?

Do all guys onli want a gf just for the sake of S-E-X?

Yes?No?

argue it out!

"Obviously the S-E-X word right? As for the girls, it's shopping, eating, slimming down and etc.etc. I'm sure woman have a lot of things on their mind. Love, House, Money, Car, Condo, Credit Card, Country Club, Cash and they complain about a whole load of stuff.

Hearing a woman complain is something that only FEW men can bear...and I've had one heck of a fill of hearing a year's worth of whining from the woman who sits beside me during English. WOW, sometimes I'm amazed that so much complaining can fit into her slim body.

Anyway, back to the GUYS.

You people are disgusting. Watch porn and think about sex only. The only safe ones are the holy ones, the mummy's boy, the nerd, people like me ( I've never touched it before or seen it before, TRUST me) and well, the rest aren't safe."

-taken fr amirul's blog

"Come on, its not true. I would think its love. The sexual fantasy is there, but hey, I believe that I know have this thinking, "Oh my god, she's hot," and then try to get to know her not because of sex, but because she's cute. I don't make a sense yeah? Okay, look at it this way, guys and girls want to know the opposite sex because their cute/handsome/pretty, but guys don't want to have sex just because she is cute/pretty/beautiful/hot. Its all on the timing you understand? And well, in my opinion, a kiss or a hug shows just how much a someone love him/her, and not sex."

-taken fr clayton's blog

hope they dun mind me taking their opinions.hehe.
ok.nw its my turn.

hmm.ok.
i tink tat guys r like gals.we r humans too.we nd love too.not all guys r tat pervetic yea?sex may shows how much u love the opposite sex n i bet its smthing tat guys of this age (like us) wont ever understand.ok, guys at this age may just fantasize abt the opposite sex.so does the gals fantasize abt guys rite?i meant its normal for such things to happen due to our curiosity and our raging hormones.

sex at this young age?no i will say.pregnancy problems etc etc.u will nvr get enough of sex.so NO-NO at this age.wait till u get a wife n u can go have S-E-X everynight for all ur needs dude.or go get a whore if u enjoy sex so much.humans r not sex machine.

LOVE is the thing tat makes the world go round.n tat is wat everyone needs.whenever u r feeling down can u imagine how comforting it will be for a frend to come ard to cheer u up?yeps tats love.n tats the reason why guys nd gals n vice versa?probably...

dang

NP has totally rule over my life i guess.
everyday is NP.
go sch, rehearse, plan, buy rations.lol
until now i feel totally shacked.

so if u happened to see me shutting my mouth up, its not bcoz im emoing away.
is just tat im damn tired.ok?get it?

shacked

lol.shud have been in sch by now liao.haha nvm i guess wait till 11.45am then go bah.

neways yest was realli fun.
thnx everyone 4 the fun.
seldom u see NP having so much fun.
oh isit bcoz of smone?hah.mayb bah.hahaha
it shows tat we love ECP alot eh?

bladed 4 duno how long la.
nw got sunburnt liao.

tats all i got 4 now.
gtg n prepare.
cya guys!

bored

dun feel like bloggin today.
damn tired.
damn sick.
damn tired bcoz nvr slp enough.
damn sick of how im feeling.
'coz i simply noe nthing bout wats happening/going to happen
hope tat the sun will shine again.

juz wondering y this world is filled with troubles now.
it seems like every teen is troubled 4 god noes why.
n we juz call others EMO when it is their turn.
who noes tat by doing tat, the person might feel worse.

imagine how gd it will b to b in a WONDERLAND?
where there thons of magic lamps with 3chances each to make ur wished come true,
fairy god mother to turn u into a beauty n charming gal/guy fr a commoner,
hah!imagine tat man?how chaotic will the world b?
ppl cursing each other to die with their magic lamps?
stealing n killing with the magic?
noone understands the true beauty tat lies within the heart, the personality?
all they care 4 will b looks, own benefits.
will there be smthing called true frends?
i bet not even frends,
coz everyone will b caring 4 themselve n not the others.
ahhh...its juz so sick.

neways,
on a happier topic, i bought my skates today liao.
so if neone of u got nthing to do,
wana go ECP to play or wat,
im available now!hah

happyhappy.

lol.today was sort of the happiest days of the baddest days i ever had this week.hahaha.

went to Peninnsula Shopping centre with my bro to check out the price of skates.haha.maeb gona go back to buy tml.
yay!skates skates skates!i bet i will dream of them tonite!hahaha.

so after tat, met up with ronald n gavin n we decided to go ECP coz i wanna check the skates price there.it was expensive actually.so we walked all the way to the east coast lagoon to have our EARLY DINNER.

guess wat we bought?
1)stingray ($10)
2)6chicken wings ($6)
3)fried hokkien mee ($5)
4)black carrot cake ($5)
total of $26

we seldom eat so much n so EXPENSIVE b4.
coz in ronald's mind,
$1=1 Initial D currency.
so save more = play more
Tats RONALD'S 1st LAW

neways, yest we went suntec n stayed there till damn late.at the playground there u noe?hah.i did sm graffiti on the pebbles.tok one with me n put the rest in the pond.wanna see?find me n i will show it to u.hah.

tats all 4 today.
may tml be a better day 4 all (:
n hopefully ill get my skates tml :D

wats this?

aiya i juz hate watever thing is happening to me.
SCREW IT
i dun feel like carrying on nemore.
noone listens, noone cares.
i cant put my heart into wat i am supposed to do.
i hate it.

neways tml was quite a bad day.
maeb 4 the squad.
nt going to say y.
haiz.i can feel how he feels.
probably all he need is to be alone...
n yea i have to agree tat we cant do nething to stop it fr happening.
but its still sm emotional thing rite.
u cant control ur tears fr rolling down.
only time can cure this wound.
n maeb sm moral support by the frends.

haiz.
have u ever wonder y there is death?
its such a painful process 4 the relatives n frends.
but everyone have to face it n sm day it will b their turn.
wat a painful cycle.
u may b crying n weeping bcoz u have loss ur loved ones.
who noes?ten years down the road, alot other ppl may b crying 4 u.

haha.
now i still can remember every chinese new year.
my grandpa will get everything prepared.
all the bah guas, nuts, drinks n chinese new year food ready laid on the table.
he will welcome us with his heart-warming smile.
lol.nex chinese new year, i wont see him there again.
no more "old-hero" in me n my families' life.
how hard am i trying still to accept his death.
tats y, when i heard of his grandma death.
tears started building up in my eyes, thinking of the scene of the whole family of us standing next to his bed in the hospital.
while he sleeps peacefully forever, his heart no longer beating.
then came the day tat he was send into the cremation furnace,
lying in the wooden box called a casket...

hai.43days have passed.
n it seems like he was still alive yesterday.
every memory of him suddenly comes to life.
but he is no-longer.
so, to those of u who still have ur grandparents with u,
treasure them b4 they r gone.

btw i dun tink i have the power to carry on without those ppl ard me.
all those who have been helping me in being a "leader among the leaders".
those who gave words of encouragement n joy to me.
cheerios to u all ((;

lol.neways i sprained my ankle juz now in sch.
hahaha.joke...




Emo takes over solitaire

skates

hmm.today was another emo day.shit.
probably im too selfish n dun tink of others.
smtimes i realli feels like giving up.
feels like theres no point in everything i do.

neways, i tink tat salomon has stop production in singapore.so theres no way i can get those freestyle skates.

so,now im looking 4 sm freestyle skates.
probably fr bout $200+ to $400?
frames of about 76mm to 80mm
plz tag if u noe of ne skates.oso can introduce skates to me.
if u r a pro skater, plz leave ur suggestions.
thnx.

im wrong.

after all.i tink im in the wrong oso.yea probably my words may be too hurting to him.so sorry.

hmm.how i wish i can sit down on the beach.alone or with my frends.

sitting on the beach makes me reflect on wat i have done, listening to the sound of the waves hitting the shore n people enjoying themselves at the beach.hah how cool.i have always wanted to sit on the beach alone.but afterall, it looks stupid.the on-lookers may think tat u r gonna commit suicide (probably the look on ur face.heh.) but its cool aint it?haha

sitting on the beach with ur frends is definitely gd.telling each other ur problems n secrets, helping each other with their problems, giving them sm piece of ur mind.hehe.but seldom got the chance to do it (or never.lol)

best emo place is the beach yea?lol


on another topic,
can neone plz tell me where to get salomon skates in singapore?
looking for a pair of Freeskates
so if neone of u noes where to get them (most probably a retail shop),
plz do tell me (: thnx

enough is enough

today was sort of a bad day 4 me.hai.my whole world juz went EMO.yeah EMO.

firstly, it was smthing to do with camp rehearsal.ah.so we were doing the high school musical thingy.yea.the high school musical DANCE (dun look at me like tat).

so X was trying to teach us sm dance steps, so after looking, sm of us disagree to it.i said smthing like: "i prefer the previous dance step.think its better."

then 4 god-noes-wat-reason, X left the rm.then after awhile, P came in n said my words hurt X's feelings.omg.u shud see P's crude expressions (nearly fought with him.usual me, 4ever so rough).ah shit tat man.then after tat, sm of us including me, went off EMOING.lol.haiz.

secondly, to tink of my members, im quite disappointed in them.ESPECIALLY one of them.lets call him/her Y.yes.i tink i have talked about Y in one of my previous posts.dun wanna tok about him nemore.

thirdly, im still thinking of u though u already have left few weeks ago.hai.u were the "hero" in our eyes.u were so fit, we didnt even thought of u leaving us so soon.u fell down at home n u went into the hosp.we then realised u were in the final stage of cancer.it was lung cancer at tat time.tat was when we really started to spend time with u.quality time with u.about 2weeks later, u passed away.

granpa.i miss u...


3 Doors Down - Here Without You

A hundred days had made me older since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder and I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappeared now when I’m dreaming of your face

I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me

The miles just keep rolling as the people either way to say hello
I hear this life is overrated but I hope it gets better as we go

I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
And tonight girl it’s only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
it gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it’s all said and done
it get hard but it won’t take away my love

I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me

I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
but tonight girl it’s only you and me

castaway

stayed up yest night to catch the Saturday Late Night Movie.
lol.yea.the show was Castaway.

it was a pretty nice movie, or rather touching.

the story is about a guy called Chuck Noland(played by Hanks), a FedEx systems engineer whose personal and professional life are ruled by the clock. His fast-paced career takes him, often at a moment's notice, to far-flung locales and away from his girlfriend Kelly(played by Helen Hunt).

Chuck's manic existence abruptly ends when, after a plane crash, he becomes isolated on a remote island cast away into the most desolate environment imaginable. Stripped of the conveniences of everyday life, he first must meet the basic needs of survival, including water, food and shelter. Chuck, the consummate problem solver, eventually figures out how to sustain himself physically. But then what? Chuck begins his true personal journey.

After four years, fate gives Chuck a chance to fight his way back to civilization, only to find an unexpected emotional challenge greater than all the earlier physical ones. His ability to persevere and to hope are a product of his life-changing experience. Though the conclusion of Chuck's story may not be a conventional Hollywood ending, it is, like life, full of truth, pain and promise

After a bittersweet welcome-back reception, Chuck finds Kelly has married another man and has children. But he is missing more than her. For all his life his objective was work. For four years, it was survival. Now Chuck is compelled to live.



I have to keep on breathing.
Cause tomorrow, the sun will rise again.
And i can't stay here like this forever.
Tomorrow is going to be a new day.
Who knows, what the tide will bring.
Who knows, when we'll ever go back to before.
Who knows...

emo?

emoing?
again?
ah fuck those emo lifes.
no life.

y live to regret?
y cant we make the correct choice?
y everything in this world is going against him?
y is he feeling the stress and pressure again?
y cant he juz enjoy himself like the past?

Y?

can smone plz save him before he breaks down?

ahhh...............!!!!

recovered

brrr...finally sort of recovered.was sick for the past 3days.

38.9 was the record breaking temperature for the past 3days i guess lol
and yea..hopefully im able to get back to sch.

cya! (: