haix

i feel so tired bout my life...nthing new, nthing interesting at all. juz the boring life i've been leading since sec sch. everyday, i feel so sick n tired of sch n how i hope i could skip sch. mayb its bcoz of HER tat is affecting my mind. how i wish i can get a brain-wash n 4get bout those painful memories tat have been engraved onto my brain...till nex time

HER

haix..duno when will my feelings end 4 her, duno when will she start to like me...
she is my soul,
she is my wings.
she is my everything.

i can lose anything,
i can lose everything,
but i can not lose her.

i tink of her whenever im free n i feel the pain of this! how sad i am? noone noes, onli me. n this feelings juz cant go away..no way. no matter wat i do. how i wish i can tok to her. how i wish i could hold her hands. how i wish...how i wish tat all my wishes would come true...love her

now i m starting to noe wat amirul means when "it's hard to love when you're not truly loved back" n i guess tats wat i m feeling rite now...n i dun feeling like blogging on...till then

nthing to post

Wa...super dooper ultimate sian..nthing to say, nthng to tell..so i shall end here...

-Crap To Live. Live To Crap!

ECP

waaaa...sianx...sch reopened liaoz..SCREW IT! haix oso no choice. so i shall basically illaborate on wat happened to me YESTRDAY 190306 the day i will always remember

So its sun n planned to go to ECP with r0nnie, gav n jmin. but jmin cant go out, so nvm i thought, leaving onli the L0NELY TRIO. suddenly when we were abt to reach r0n hse, he called us n told us tat his duno ah ma or whoever fell down n injured her hand n broke the bone. so now we were down with onli 2ppl n its like wth...so without further a do, we went to PP n played sm dumb arcade games there n went to ECP soon after.
Gavin decided to jog along while i bladed..went without guards n REGRETTED soon enuf 1stly, i fell down, scraping my knees. i thought it was ok n so, went on. we reached the hawker centre there n i bought a coconut n drank n ate the flesh b4 continuing our journey to Bedok Jetty. reached there, sat down, enjoyed the sea breeze n we were off again...
When i was about to reach the taxi stand infront of the restaurant, Red House, i could feel my speed increasing tremendously, rapidly n ZOOM i flew n landed on my face! OMG! i thought how could i even done tat....

I sat up n could feel the blood oozing out of my wound inside my lips n could feel tat it was swollen..i spit all the blood on the grnd n then came a few kind souls who actually stopped n take a look at wat had happened. an uncle n a bunch of angmohs (4 of them) those bunch of angmohs offered to call the ambulance but i insisted not to, coz it juz a small matter n so they went off. n the uncle gave me 2pkts of tissue.haix wat a bad day i thought n wat a way to end my hols...OMG...went baq to return my blades n gav offered me his shoes n he bladed back..lol n he bladed in a verie funny or so called "UNIQUE" way n all the passers stared at him...

so in the end ron came n we sat on the beach n kept LAUGHING AT MY FACE wat a BUDDY of mine! n till 2day he still laughing at me...but he apologised liaox...so i 4give him n he said "i didnt laugh at ur face bcoz kena cut, but ur face look very cute" so i shall end here 4 2day...

-l0ner

pair of blades

hi..wa yest went to Queensway Shopping Centre to take a look at Blades n bags. went in to a shop selling deuter bag (my FAV brand 4 bags!) looked ard n saw a Deuter Transalpine bag...it was pretty "COOL" n nice tho but it cost $110 with discounts n blahx blahx deducted. haha, its pretty costly, so i went off considering bout the price...hehe!now i went to a skates shop n if im not wrng, the shop's name was Skate Line..WoOoO... dose blades r TERRIFIC, WONDERFUL! n the same goes with their price! saw a pair fr RollerBlades the color n price was resonable n it was ard $199 - %200+ i tink...the shopkeeper said tat if im keen n interested in blading, i shud get a pair which is GOOD (refering to the one im looking at) it was true yea! if u get a lousy pair, u still need to modify the bearings n dose wheels which cost bout $120+ so again i went off, considering bout the price...poor me lol the total amt of a bag n apair of blades was approx $300+ with my mom n bro sponsoring la! if not wat u tink? i can afford $300+ meh? lol! with bro n mom sponsoring, i will be able to pay less lo..buden still muz consider. haha...

Newayz flipped thru my previous emails n found smthing quite funny...hope u guys like it

The sky was dark
The moon was high
All alone
Just her and I
Her hair so soft
Her eyes so blue
I knew just what
She wanted to do
Her skin so soft
Her legs so fine
I ran my fingers
Down her spine
didn't know how
But I tried my best
To place my hand
On her breasts
I remember my fear
My fast beating heart
But slowly she spread
Her legs apart
And when she did it
I felt no shame
All at once
The white stuff came
At last it's finished
It's all over now
My first time
Milking a cow!

-L0ner

hols r boring

Yo! feel so x4 bored at home. Wondered y holidays r given to US lil students..

Reasons:
1) To give us more homework
2) Let us revise our work
3) To let us reflect on our results for the term (4 me, it was REALL REALLY BAD!)

Disadvantages.....
1) Cant reali enjoy our HOLY DAYS
2) Of coz u cant go out with frendz due to hw...
3) Unable to see our frendz everyday...

Conclusion...
School is still de best 4 US, the lil students. But school without exams will sure b the happiest days 4 US, lil students. n of coz.. holidays r DEFINITELY boring with hw...

My Love Story

yo! havent been blogging for about 1week liaoz!! haha as wat i have promised, heres the story.....


The Story

2003
Secondary 1

It was the 1st few weeks of school n a usual day, H(him) went home with F(H's Friend) and saw a girl, which we shall call her S(she) at the bus stop. Coincidentally, S oso took the same bus as H n F which was the bus no.31. S was F's classmate.

F said"hey tat gal over there ah..is my classmate leh..."

H was like "okay...so?"

They went onto the second storey of the bus and found tat it was quite empty n so found a sit n sat down...At the same time, F was teasing S using the name of the crush of S which was actually juz rumors tho...H as a naughty n playful boy too joined in in the teasing... S juz stood there n smiled back silently at them. At the same time, H had fell in love with her.

H told F "WOW...she very cute sia! especially with the cute n blurrish expression n tat specs sia...totally cute!!"

2005
Secondary 2

One year had passed n H have never forgotten bout S. Her big beautiful eyes which captivated H's heart. The pass one year, H had gotten S's email from F n have chatted with her a few times before n now, H knows S's birthday n planned to do something about it.

A day after school, H n F were at the bus stop n saw S n they again, took the same old bus no.31 home n it was another double-decker bus n sosososoo coincidentally, they went up to the second storey again. This time F was talking to S n H was just sitting there silently listening to their conversation. Suddenly, a part of the conversation caught H's ears.

F: "hey tok to my frend(H) la...see he so lonely sitting down there.."
S: "dunwan la...i dun know him"

without any reason, H was feeling so upset and he could feel his heart breaking into half...

One night, H was chatting with S on the MSN
H: "hey! i tink i got smthing to tell u leh.."
S: "wat?"
H: "I Love You"
S: "NONO! Pls tell me that u r joking with me!"
H: "Im not joking...u wan me to tell u in school tml?"
S: "NONO!"

H's heart broke into half again...feeling the sadness of being rejected by his FIRST LOVE. Maybe it was becourse H have never been in love n did not know how to phrase his love to S.

Neway, H forgot about tat incident soon enough n the BIG DAY was arriving - S's Birthday! H had planned to get S a birthday present long ago n this faithful afternoon, H together with F n R(H n F's buddy) went down to Bugis. They walked past many shops n went into almost every gift shop n took a look at all tat they had in the shop. Finally, they found a shop which i guess some of u know - Gift A Name. Yes! it was the shop for H! In the end, H bought a keychain which has a string of letter making up S's name. Thinking tat S would love it.

It was S's birthday n H asked one of S's male friend to give the present to her n yes indeed she love it! Thinking tat it was from tat friend of hers which was actually bought by H. But the truth soon arrived at her ears. When S found out tat the present was fr H, she THREW it into the dustbin! THE DUSTBIN! When F told H about it,

H said "nvm la..i gave her liao..she dun wan then up to her lor.."
But inside H's heart, it was bleeding non stop again...

Nothing much between S n H happened n it dragged on to the another year...

2006
Secondary 3

It has been more then 2years n H is still hanging on, never forgetting bout S- the girl who mesmerised his heart for more than 2years...

One day, F came to H n told him something...
F: "hey! good news! u know last year u gav S tat present? she actually never throw away!"
H: "REALLY!? omg! where isit now?"
F: "she said she duno put where liao"
H: "oic..then nvm la...neways thnx man!"
H felt so relievely happy for the first time thinking tat S kept tat present with her.
For the first time in his life, H was sleeping so sweetly tat he was dreaming about S in his dreams.

Few days later, before valentines day, H together with F n R went out to Bugis again n wanted to buy S a valentines day present. This year H bought S a box of chocolate and a card, valentines day card.

Again, H asked another friend of S to give her the present, this time knowing tat it was from H.
From wat the friend of S said, S seems to be quite happy bout the present she recieved n SURELY, H was indeedly happy. But he knew tat S would never ever give him a chance to love her n hold her hands as they walk down the road n walk down the streets together...NEVER..

Until these days, H is still trying to woo S n really hopes that S would just give him a chance. All the things he have done n time he have given- More than 2years. But wat did H got from all those things he have done?

Nothing, nothing at all....
And H is still tinking of S whenever he was bored,
All those SWEET memories n time H has with S,
Though not together...
But H felt just as happy as seeing S,
Being mesmerised by her big black eyes...

Till today, S is still ignoring H, treating H like a stranger...
Imagine how sad H would feel...
Days still went by
And H is still hanging on,
At this moment,
this minute,
this second

And H sits down infront of his computer,
typing this story of his....
This story which does not have an ending...

-L0ner.....

wakao..feeling abit de sick liaoz....eeekss hate feeling sick...dumn-it!stiill trying to gather more info 4 my story which im planning to screen on my blog n hmm guess it will take at least a few days at least (planning n look 4 free time etc etc)
so hope to publish it ASAP n hope tat comments would b given..hehehe signing off liaoz...

Paranoia

paranoia
depressions
friendship
freedom
her
studies

all thats running thru my mind
confused i am
y arent they mine?
everything that i fail
that penetrates my mind

couples holding hands
as i stroll down the streets
while i hold in my hands
just a bunch of sweets

thinking of them
who r my frends
thinking of her
who is my love

without them
noone i am
without her
souless i am

-l0ner