gone!!

my feelings 4 her has finally disappeared..duno whether its a gd or bad thing..gd thing is tat i can concentrate on my studies. nthing to trouble abt. bad thing is tat i think tats no point living..no goals in life. will miss her oso. newayz still tink tat she will b the one tat i once loved so deeply n i shall not love nemore. too painful as wat ron said. so finish bout the relationship n now to my life. my life simply sux to the core..noone likes me at all..no one at all..yeap. u tink im gay? im not..but i shall let u say watever u like..its ur mouth neways. u tink im a bully? yea i too agree. u tink im dumb, slack, ass, fucker. yes...totally i am...but do u tink i want it tat way? No i will say. but do u blieve it? no i tink. im a sadist. so plz, if u dont like me plz say. i wan to change too. but u tink its easy? try doing it urself n tell me!

mid year

arggghhh!! mid year exams r coming in approx. 9days time n i havent even started revising!! OH GOD DAMNIT...so i guess like wat ronnie said, he wont be blogging n wont b coming online n at least we still have hps to sms!! so...i guess i will end here n ALL THE BEST TO EVERYONE OUT THERE INCLUDING ME! GD LUCK 4 MID YEAR EXAMS!

NCO CAMP!! SEC3ss!

yay!! so happy! finally NCO Camp is over. but i tink tat im quite sad oso. mainly bcoz after the NCO Camp, the sec3s might not b as united as compared to the time in NCO Camp. we might tend to slack oso la. which is definitely BAD!!. ok. wat have i learnt fr this camp r leadership, unity, endurance, friendship, initiative n blah blah blah...cant rmbr all la..so now im beginning to love my squadmates n my squad. i hope tat in the future, our squad will mantain our discipline n unity! NCOs-TO-BE!! SEC3 2006! all the way!

Sec3s oi!
oi!
Sec3s oi!
oi!
Sec3s ka bak bak
olay olay ah ah!
sec3s ka bak bak
olay olay ah ah!
shake it out!
yea!
shake shake
yea yea!
shake it out
yea!

depressed

man. im so depressed. HER, friendship....
1) her:
it has been the "main topic" of my blog..most of the time i have been toking bout HER..still loving her. but wat to do? its a one-sided-love. dun wish to tok more..
2) friendship:
gavin is like bottling everything to himself n he dun seems to trust me..he even toks to smone fr australia..DUDE! y dun u juz trust me? i shud have been the one who cant trust u man! wad have u done? told u i like weiting, then u keep telling ppl. WTF! do u even treat me as ur buddy? bygones r bygones....neway. now i tink ronald, jiamin n jierong r the ones tat i can seriously trust..i can only tell em everything. but none of them seems to b free..haix.

-i walked a lonely road...

new bag

today so happy!! yay! bought my first pair of soccer boots..shin guard + socks too...lol! so DUH rite? who dosent buy socks n shin guards when u buy the boots? lol..newayx bought a new billabong bag!!! wippee!!! sooooo happy. but will not b using my bag b4 june hols. diaox. newayx juz wana tok bout the NCO Camp. unity, leadership, initiative, teamwork. basically, i tink tat i have learnt alot of things fr Sirs n Madms. Sir Kelvin, Sir Desmond. the other CIs oso taught us alot la n i tink i have absorbed alot fr them. i seriously loved it..duno y. no specific reasons tho..juz love it lol

NCO camp1

Yo ! back fr NCO camp part 1...overall, it was pretty gd! YEAP! GD! onli sm attitude probs n common mistakes made by us..still not very united tho...shall give a detailed story bout the camp nex week when the whole camp ends. too tired to type on

buddy

im so damn upset with my best frend today,
RONALD
after the postponed Games Carnival, me, gav, pohheng n yuwen went off 1st..so, ron gave me a call asking me if i could wait 4 him anot. i said YES (duh) he is my best frend, wat u expect? running off without him? so being a SMART ALEX, i ran back all the way fr the row of bungalows to the sch...yep..ran back there, couldnt see him, so went out of the main gate n saw him with CLIFFTON (smone whom i detest-at-first-sight) i didnt like his face n quite buaysong with him. so i went up to ronald n ask him whether he wan to go with me anot. this is wad he said:
"cliffton got smthing urgent n he needs me"
i was like so? u wanted us to wait 4 u n i ran baq juz to find u! DUDE! WTF? i felt so sad n angry..
"y did i trusted him so much? y did i tink tat he is the closest to me? Y? when im troubled, does he even cares about me? NO WAY!"
so, at tat moment, my heart crashes..FRIENDSHIP, the onli thing tat i have with me now...n he, was my best frend.
noone noes how sad i feels inside my heart. smone who is ur buddy n he cares more bout his classmate! so wat r buddies for?

tearin down as i blogged

JERK!

i finally thought up of y sm ppl hate me so much.
main reasons
-JERK
-IRRITATING
-NONSENSICAL
-IMMATURE
therefore, i sincerely apologise to all those ppl around me n those whom ive pissed

SORRY!

n i oso muz try to change my bad habits..so plz give me smtime to overcome....thanx..i oso muz say sry to smone important to me...who is HER whom i tink u guys might noe.maeb i have disgusted her by saying the 3 words "i love u" to her when we were juz total strangers..SO SORRY.